I have had so many things flying around in my head lately, I don't know where to start...
The first thing I have been thinking about is my faith in god. I believe in god and always have and always will, I have to admit I have questioned his ways in the past few years when it comes to my life's path. I know people always say we make our own path's in life but I know God has his hand in it too.
I have struggled the last few years with alot of things that has happened in my life and I know alot of the choices I have made has not been the best. But I just wish if God is trying to tell me something then he needs to just come talk to me and let me know, because all this hardship is really taking its toll on me.. I have not been to a actual church in a long time, and I have been looking but there is no church that I feel comfortable with in my town. I want a church that is friendly and the people take the time to get to know you.
The second thing I have been thinking about is my health. I have asthma and have dealt with almost dying a few times. I was without insurance for a long time so I could not get my right meds, but my wonderful doctor found me a program that now I can get all my meds for free. Now the biggest thing is my weight, I have put on a few pounds since leaving my first husband and it is so hard to get them off. I have never been this big and it affects my breathing and sometimes I am ashamed of myself. I have decided to try and do some portion control and not snack after a certain time at night. I need to drink more water and stay away from the soda. It is so hard to eat the right things and lose the weight. so please pray that I can over come things road block and make myself better.