Have you ever just sat and wondered about the path you have taken in life and the choices you have made?
I have been doing that alot lately, and I am struggling with the results. I never dreamed that I would be having the life that I have right now.. It is so weird how things are so different in reality then they are when we day dream. I always dreamed for a better life for myself, don't get me wrong I had a good childhood, my mom was a single mother of 3 and she provided for us kids. But as a child I always swore that I would have a great job and better things and money to pay bills and buy food, also marry a man and stay married to that man forever. Wow was I way off....
I did get married and had a sort of good life, I had family and friends to help me out when I needed it. Then all of a sudden my mother was gone and I felt all alone and scared to death. The guy I thought was so wonderful, turned out to be a cheater. Soon after my grandma past away and now I was all alone... I struggled for awhile and realized I needed to end the marriage and move on. The great job I always dreamed about was not there and so there was no money.
I met a guy and thought he was going to be my prince charming and give me the life I always dreamed about that was way off too.
I now live in a 2 bedroom apt and it is tiny as heck and have to bust my butt working 3 jobs to even survive. I wonder where did I go wrong? And is there a chance I can still be happy?